From my journal entry on June 15, 2021 in the big black book. I wonder, how much of what we do today, what we are doing now and in our everyday lives are unconscious efforts to heal old wounds? At first, this thought makes me balk at it; how pathetic are we that we cannot let go of the past? How unevolved am I that what I do now is all for the reparation of my hurts and pains and my unfulfilled visions of myself, my dreams, my heart's desires? Even when not seeming so, that s